When I came home and realized how close that is, I started to second guess myself like, "are you sure you want to do this now?" Last week Dave seemed to have gone through these feelings when I was just excited, but now the tables have somehow shifted. Having her became so scary all of a sudden! I laugh because I've wanted her to come and have been so excited for so long, but now it is like I am standing in the doorway of the plane and hearing myself ask, "wait-- what? Now?!" It's SCARY!!! I think being a first-time mom is one of THE scariest things in the world. Your body goes through so many changes and I am continually asking myself, "Is this normal? Is she okay? What is going on? What does that mean?" I feel some hard contractions and I start asking, "Oh, is this it?!?" or-- when I have to go to the bathroom suddenly I'm like, "Ah! is my water about to break?... ope, nope, I just have to pee." What a crazy thing this whole pregnancy thing is. If I make it till Friday without going crazy, I will be SO relieved!
Okay, well I am off to make something chocolate. Prayers for Friday are all welcomed please!!!


